So I'm exhausted. Meaning might be blurry.
Tomorrow I'm getting bloodwork done for inpatient.
I'm leaving for inpatient next Wednesday, on the third.
I'll be in California, at the Center for Discovery.

I broke up with Tyler about 6 weeks ago. Now I am dating a guy named Luke. He's insanely intelligent, probably the wisest person I know. He balances me out and keeps me accountable, rather than pretending I have no flaws. Tyler and I agreed we would stay friends, and I still try to talk to him but he doesn't talk back anymore.. I understand, though.. It's just really sad. We were super close. I still wanted to be friends, and he said he did too. He always said he'd be in my life, be it as a boyfriend or just a friend. Guess all of it really wasn't what we both thought.. He's a sweet boy, just not what I need right now. I still love him, it's just platonic.

This weekend(halloween) I'm visiting Luke where he works. He's an actor in the Festival of Fear at Wet N Wild. I'm stoked to see him in action I also plan on punching out anybody who tries to heckle him XD

Tomorrow will be officially one month that Luke and I have been together. Yayy. Things are going really well between us. He makes me feel alive. I get goosebumps when he kisses me. I think I'm really falling for him.. It's scary as fuck, but I hope it's worth it. Being vulnerable is terrifying, especially because of what's happened in the past. But feeling pain and learning from it is better than blocking everything and feeling and learning nothing. I think he is worth it, though. I respect him more than anyone I've ever known. I kind of just want to crawl inside his mind and look around in there. I hope I don't screw this up.